On Becoming

IMG_9707Elaine Clayton copyright 2015

The journey of a master is to seek a path and take life for the adventure it is: an opportunity to be uncomfortable toward a greater destination. In the Shabbat Siddur, a favorite phrase of mine is something like this: “We don’t like changing, but God loves becoming.” Each moment, we are disturbed toward something new,  becoming and expanding. Now and now and now and now.

In my dream last night, I could fly and hover over places, over snow banks. I didn’t worry about falling because I could assume good form, like in the gymnastics I did for years, and control my body so that as I fell, I’d be in such a position as graceful as a  swan dive, for example. And that would cause me to once again hover, and not go crashing down. The dream felt like elation! It tells me that as I control my responses to life situations, choosing how I want to think and feel, I get stronger and more graceful. I’m not bragging–I have a long way to go. It is just that I have noticed that within myself I am able to use “good form” to stay afloat and even in a kind of bliss–we can’t control things in life, but we can shape ourselves into being who we choose to be, no matter what.

Stream Drawing with Emotional Momentum


Memories and Thoughts/ Elaine Clayton copyright 2015

Thoughts float in, and float out. Some stay. Some have stayed for so long, like decades (especially ideas about ourselves that we got long ago at school or home when we were growing up) that we think they define us. Noticing my thoughts, and the powerful emotions that come with them, is the first step in choosing which thoughts I want to generate, cultivate and keep. Painting and creating stream drawings is a way to let thoughts glide in, notice them and the feelings that come with them, and allow them to flow out. If they’re not pleasant thoughts, it feels great to let them glide on by. If they’re wonderful thoughts, then I play with them, feeling them in the present moment.

Stream draw a little today to get that feeling of bliss in the way of thoughts and feeling. It will change your life. Close your eyes, use your non-dominant hand and start drawing loosely. It feels like flying. Open your eyes when you’ve finished and see what it looks like–and play with the images a little. To learn more about stream drawing and intuitive stream drawing, click here!

Dogs in Dreams


Detail from a recent Spirit Painting/ Elaine Clayton copyright 2015

I think of unconditional love, obedience, companionship, loyalty and protection when I think of dogs, and especially when they show up in meditation or appear in intuitive stream drawings. You might have other things to add to my list, personal meanings you hold and associate with dogs. Dream symbology is great to explore since it can lead to insightful personal and universal truths. In this recent Spirit Painting, a well groomed dog (poodle) shows it can sit up, beg (for a treat?) and embodies training and grooming. This is a cultivated dog. I wonder what are the things I cultivate in my life? What has my attention, and what do I nurture? The saying, “You reap what you sow” makes me think that what we nurture and cultivate yields fruits for us, so it better be things we intend to nurture and cultivate but I am certain we unconsciously give a lot of time and space to things that will end us up in not so good places. Becoming conscious of how we use our energy in the way of thoughts, plans, emotions, ideas, etc. is a pretty good idea. If you’ve had dogs in dreams, I’d love to hear about it!

Stream Drawing Workshop in NYC

Pre-register now and join us in NYC at the wellness center on 5th Ave this May 16th from 4-6 pm. We will be using the methods shared in MAKING MARKS: Discover the Art of Intuitive Drawing. You will be taking the necessary steps toward building a personal, visual-intuitive language: drawing with emotion, gazing at the marks made, trusting what comes to you and then discovering and connecting what you see in your drawing with life situations and events.

“MAKING MARKS shows how a universal urge to make marks can be a doorway to dimensions of consciousness of which we’re unaware in our waking life. Want to unleash your inner Picasso or Paul Klee? Read Clayton’s captivating book!” –Dr. Larry Dossey, MD, author of One Mind and The Science of Premonitions


StreamDraw_penguin2Before and After images: The same intuitive stream drawing above, drawn and then shaded in to show what I saw when I looked at it. I spoke of what penguin means to me personally, sharing my intuitive-visual language with her. I said they remind me of “good fathers” the way they take care of the eggs and stay with the family. This image had significant importance with the client who, after the session, told me she collects penguin images and they’re all over her house.  And why did she collect penguin images? Because her main interest is in having a “good father” figure in her life, as a partner for having a family of her own. These are the kinds of wonderful, enjoyable but also deeply emotive things that can happen with creating stream drawings.

Register for this workshop through www.illuminara.com or by emailing me directly at elaineclaytonreadings@gmail.com

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Free Handed: Developing Empathy Through Drawing



A stream drawing in progress

How can “free handed drawing” (I like to call it “stream drawing”) connect you to empathy, to feeling for others? Drawing freely directly and immediately opens you to feeling, to sensation, to the momentum of emotions as they come and go. When you begin to feel, you begin a conversation with self, a conscious awareness of how you feel gives volume to your thought process and experiences. You aren’t just reacting anymore, you’re feeling and thinking and then choosing how to respond. This same conscious awareness is what opens us up to feeling for others—if we know our feelings, we are more likely to have empathy and compassion for others. We don’t have to understand all our feelings, just be in touch with them.

The same stream drawing once I start playing with it, gazing at it and drawing into it to find meaning, to feel more deeply, to increase creative exploration and visual-intuitive language. I come away feeling very open to the feelings of those around me.
Learn the basic steps to this enlightening and creative practice, the method shared in MAKING MARKS: DISCOVER THE ART OF INTUITIVE DRAWING.

IMG_7583The same stream drawing once I start gazing into and playing with it visually.


Come Stream Draw with Me at Fairfield University Bookstore


Come recapture drawing in a free-style way I call ” stream drawing” and allow your unconscious, creative, imagination flow into your hands and onto paper. This drawing event is at Fairfield University Bookstore on April 25th at 11 a.m.

Negative Space: Create Something in the Space Between


This is from one of my many, many sketchbooks circa 1980s– that space between drawn figures asks to be played with

All through high school I was obsessed with the visual wonders seen in the space between things–known as “negative space”. I didn’t speak of this to anyone, but just watched the beauty of the contour of prople and how the shapes between people or people and things looked. Later, I’d draw people and apply what I had seen and use what I had stored up inside of my mind all day. The gentle gesture of a hand against a chair, with another person leaning beside the chair, for example, could create a wondrous harmony or even indicate a dynamic of emotion (do the figures move away from each other or lean in toward one another comfortably?). And people never knew this about themselves. They might look triumphant standing under a great arch, yet they may have even been having a rotten day, and feel utterly diminished when I’d want to tell them they were royal. The spaces between people and objects helped set up stages where things happened and do happen. My first day in art school, Maria Artemis (sculptor, teacher) spoke of this visual study, “negative space” and I knew I was home, it felt like I was in heaven, finally getting to study in-depth the thing I was interested in and not only that, others out there were also just as interested in this!

Staying Unruffled: The Magician Enters (And Goes…)


My quick study of the moment the Magician swan enters, stirring the tranquility of the sleeping swans

Elaine Clayton copyright 2015

My favorite part of Swan Lake is the dramatically dangerous moment the Magician enters, his dark and powerful wings triumphantly fan out  in his menacing approach, fluttering the delicate feathers of the innocent.

Swan Lake is so archetypal, it reminds us and speaks to us of what we know to be true in life: It ain’t Paradise.  We live in this world of shadow and light, positive and negative, where sweet guileless trust meets cunning and cruel manipulation.

Swans get ready. Don’t relinquish peace and grace because of evil deeds and intentions. Be a swan in your placid environment, and know that in the end, the magician gets caught in his own brokenness, his wing crushed and his flight permanently damaged ( Swan Lake Part 2: Broken winged Magician is sent to a nature preserve where 3rd graders get to pet him and this rehab softens his sickness and propensity for harming others before he dies a less bitter agent of ruin).

Intuitive Stream Drawing: Love for an Animal in Childhood


Elaine Clayton copyright 2015 Intuitive Stream Drawing

In this intuitive stream drawing for a client, a very poignant and emotionally rich life memory surfaced. In the meditation I did prior to meeting with the client, I created an intuitive stream drawing in her honor. In the meditation while gazing at the drawing I had made (with eyes closed, using non-dominant hand), there appeared a girl petting a baby calf, possibly feeling it with the other hand. The calf looked relaxed and gentle. The girl looked so very attentive. (I colored this part of the image in here so you can see it more clearly). I asked the client if there was any reason why a calf might be present in the stream drawing I had done for her, and shared it with her. It turned out that indeed this client had a great love of animals and had raised a calf when she was quite young. She raised it beautifully, only to have to see it win a prize (for her great grooming and nurturing of it) and then be sold at the fair as a result. The problem is that animals sold at the fair usually end up slaughtered. This was a crushing blow to her, for a young person to be so dedicated as to responsibly raise a tender young animal, only to have to face the shock that it could no longer be under her care and would or did meet a terrible fate.

After doing so many of these intuitive stream drawings over the years for so many, I trust that if an image presents itself, there is a powerful or significant reason for it. During the reading we were able to talk about how much this time in her life (even with the awful reality of losing the life of the animal after raising it so lovingly) meant in terms of her development of her personality and motivations in her own career choice, a people doctor. And how her love of this animal is still felt in some universal way (which I believe the drawing spiritually showed– that a kindness done is never forgotten–it felt like spiritual acknowledgment that this client had been so kind to this innocent beast of burden, and that kindness was not ever a waste!). In fact, the time the client spent with the animal helped shape and mold her dedication and resolve to “do no harm” in her current work, which she does also so lovingly. The calf helped her realize her healing gift, and she helped this little beast of burden to feel loved and cared for as it grew.

This was such a powerful moment in a reading. I can’t stop thinking about it! To learn more about intuitive stream drawing, click here.

Are You Blue? Synesthesia and the Color Blue


mono print Elaine Clayton copyright 2015

How did such a happy, vibrant color end up being the way people describe sadness, as in, “I’m feeling so blue”? For me, blue is peace, calm, cool, heaven, sky, ocean. Blue makes green possible (with the help of yellow). Blue is mystical, a little mysterious, dynamic and makes purple possible (yes, with the help of red). I can never stop loving every subtle shade of blue from cobalt to “Robin’s Egg”–I even love the names of the shades of blue people have given over time.  Blue gives me synesthesia sensations, such as, for me the number 5 is blue. It is the color blue in my mind. It triggers the masculine animus within–bold, confident, intelligent yet it triggers the feminine, too–receptive, creative, imaginative. Another synesthesia experience I have though is when I see written, or say the word, “azure” I see the color red in many shades–the word “azure” itself is red to me for some reason, even though it represents a dashing and stunning shade of blue). Blue and getting the blues—maybe ideally blue connects us to a point of spiritual arrival within, and when we feel “blue” we are saying we long for that return to completion, to feeling whole and as though we are where we need to be.