This is one of the 40 Illuminara Intuitive Journal cards. I painted it thinking of my birth place and the Texas landscape that was to be my idea of what the world was in my first decade of life. I think of going home when I choose it randomly, it brings up many thoughts and feelings for me. This is what it looks like in the Texas Panhandle where I was born and lived until about 10 years old. It hits me hard to realize that at the most foundational level within me, is this place, this extreme flat land with characteristics unlike any place I’ve lived since. I remember being myself in the most unconscious way, I had not thought about who I was, I just WAS “me”. Once we moved, I began to be very self-conscious and noticing drastic differences in people and places. So when I see this card, I am struck by that true, authentic cowgirl/tomboy “me” that I was, from a long line of Texans on my dad’s side, and how I had 10 years to live in that totally present self. After that time, I have visited many places, lived in many, and have been exposed to all kinds of life lessons, yet I have never felt “at home” in that same way. What does “at home” mean to me now? It means finding my soul, connecting with my heart, being myself and genuine, true to who I am. It means expressing myself and respecting others. I am at home in my own skin.
Right now, I am totally immersed in Judaism with all its ancient wisdom and mystical richness. I “came home” to myself in many ways when I finally started studying Hebrew and chanting the prayers in the Siddur. This would seem to have taken me far from home, but instead it feels like going back home. Maybe it was that menorah Mom had or all the Levy family who we were so close to, and who my dad and all of us grew up with in Texas, or Jesus who I knew to be a Jew, wondering why everyone wasn’t then just Jewish if he was? Maybe it was past lives. All I know is that I love being home within, in that way I cannot verbalize.
Stream drawing after a compelling dream has some interesting benefits. I noticed the first time I tried it (read about it MAKING MARKS in the Streaming and Dreaming chapter) I did the drawing thinking about the dream, and discovered upon gazing afterward, that the drawing highlighted a particular incident that was the catalyst for changes in my life. Both the dream and the stream drawing with the dream in mind showed me elements of this life change, but from very different angles. This fascinated me as I had not connected things that way and the stream drawing helped me to more fully understand.
Last night I dreamed we were in a kind of wilderness land, and met people I’d consider guides (kind, patient, thoughtful, good advisors). The dream won’t leave me, it lingers like a movie continually playing, so I decided to create a stream drawing to see if I can learn more from or about the dream. Here it is, with my interpretations:
Detail from a stream drawing based on a dream/May 2014
I gazed at this drawing and was struck by what the word “wilderness” means to me in terms of this dream. A wilderness can be emotional or physical. In the dream it was both at once, kind of. I thought of lack of love and sense of goodness or ease as a good definition of wilderness as it relates to the dream and the stream drawing about the dream. I realize that the feelings I had in the dream were a kind of sadness I have or a hint of disappointment. This derives from parenting sons who are more young men than children now, and poignant memories of when they were still vulnerable babies and young children linger in my heart–you can’t get those years back. The “Little Red Riding Hood” image, facing the past (left) and a large bird (spiritual messenger) facing future (right) are significant to me. The fact that our earth walk seems to be perfectly captured by the story of Little Red. She is asked to step into the wilderness (forest with all it’s unknowns) and trust that she’ll get to her grandmother’s house safely. In the story, the wolf almost got her, but didn’t. She trusted herself and questioned the wolf. This Little Red here faces the bird/spiritual messenger, who has a body shaped like one big heart. Love is the key–and love is the simple message. Further to the right a child clings to a heart with a tear (love, sadness) and the number 2 there for me symbolizes being a daughter–just as I am a parent who wishes I could do it all over again, and perfectly this time, I am also a child never wanting to lose my own parents. The wilderness dream and the stream drawing helped me see that we are caught on a journey where time takes us through stages of life and grief, but here we are. The only way through it seems to be to focus on love, on being a loving person.
Detail from a recent intuitive stream drawing reading/ copyright Elaine Clayton 2013
In a recent visual-intuitive meditation, using drawing to access intuitive knowledge (I share this method in my book, MAKING MARKS: Discover the Art of Intuitive Drawing/Simon and Schuster/Beyond Words due out in May), I saw in a past position, a figure with the #2 (see in brown color) which to me signifies “daughter” or sisterhood, as well as some other associations. A beach scene appeared. All the associations of beachiness (not a real word, but it works here!) came to mind: the feeling of recreation, childhood dreams and sunny days. There is a large wave approaching, which didn’t feel scary, but more like the way life moves us on, away from our carefree days and into the rest of life. I enjoyed coloring in this beach scene, but it is only one way to perceive the shapes and lines. When sharing this with the client, it resonated for her in that she had many beach memories and it gave her a chance to see ways in which the good times in life were stored within her, no matter what else life brought (amongst other meanings that came to her).
Poetry is a way of expressing thoughts, feelings and experiences in a transformational way because it takes us out of the ordinary. Celebrating special life events through poetry is a natural for poet Amy Miller. Amy serves others joyfully through PoemsToGo. “I create original poems,” she says, “and original speeches and toasts.” I asked Amy about her inspiration and she said her beloved father inspired her most.
I used to love it when my Dad told me stories and my grandparents. Their stories stuck with me and when I lost my Dad in a tragic accident, I turned that loss into something poetic and happy, that’s how I created PTG – The testimonials speak for themselves and I know my Dad would be very proud of me as I am of him, he was my role model, taken away too young when I was only 12 years old. “I used to love it when my dad and grandparents told me stories. Their stories stuck with me.” When she lost her dad in a tragic accident, the deep anguish motivated her to create. Amy says, “I turned that loss into something poetic and happy, that’s how I came to create PTG. The testimonials speak for themselves and I know my dad would be very proud of me as I am of him. He was my role model, taken away too young when I was only 12 years old.”
Amy’s ability to turn her despair and grief into an artful mission to help celebrate the events of the lives of others is very inspiring to me as an artist. If you’d like to explore her poetry or have an up-coming event that needs an excellent, original and custom-made poem, you’ll enjoy Amy’s site, www.poemstogo.tv where you can read sample poems for many occasions.
Below is a picture of Amy with her father at the beach when she was young:
You can relieve symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress through creating art. I don’t say that as an authority on PTSD, but as an artist and person. I’ve experienced first hand the healing power of creative play, drawing and art making in general, as a way to “just be” and to feel calm.
It is a year after Hurricane Sandy and one of my sons and I still get a physically ill feeling when we drive anywhere near the house we had to rent briefly during the hurricane (we were safe there, and luckily didn’t get the rental BY THE BEACH which would have made it all much worse since all those homes flooded, but we still loathed the place we were in–think moth balls and too much porcelain and glass—and were freezing for the entire week after the hurricane). My only answer is to create. My son instinctively longed for and started building models this weekend, saying he loved, “peace and quiet” while putting the models together. I am in the studio making art to let the ptsd of that time drift away. Bless all those who still do not have their home life or housing resolved, and bless those who valiantly advocate for them!
It is such a gift to meet an artist who creates work that really captures my spirit. I want to introduce the wonderful art of Karen Siegel. These collages strike me as so positive and liberating, while feeling harmonious and playful. I love them, each one evokes very different feelings. See below a little collection of some of her latest work:
Which one is your favorite? I cannot decide, but love something about each one. The way Karen uses color, she lets the viewer shift moods easily and with enthusiasm. I feel I’m in a good dream, or remembering something I thought I’d never forget when I gaze at her work. It is as though I knew something all along and didn’t remember that I knew it—there is a real transformative feeling in each collage. And Karen shares her vision and techniques with others, so if you’re in the tri-state area or visiting the East Coast soon, you might like to have an art session with Karen. I’m so happy to share her work here!
Karen Siegel (seen at work here) is an artist living in Westport, CT and teaches art at the prestigious Silvermine School of Art. She shares here talent, offering workshops and private lessons and can be reached at firstname.lastname@example.org
Light Up Your Mind Poster / copyright Elaine Clayton 2013
I posted this art on Facebook recently and many people have asked me to have it printed up as a poster. I am happy to say posters are now available for ordering! Each one is 16″ x 20″ on semi-gloss paper. They are $ 25.00 each, plus $3.00 shipping (to cover the mailing tube and postage). To order your LIGHT UP YOUR MIND poster, just go to the Intuitive Readings page here on Illuminara.com and send me a message by using the message box on the right of the page. Thank you!
Yellow Blue with Rabbit/ mono print acrylic, pink and colored pencil Elaine Clayton copyright 2013
Rabbit symbolizes many things, including abundance or fertility and fears. I’d also encourage anyone to allow their own personal meanings and associations guide them as to the meaning of rabbit (when coming across rabbit on any ordinary day or dream). In this intuitive mono print, I found a person tossing coins and the yellow circle became sunshine and reminded me of a coin. Coins are tossed to make wishes (and to place bets?). Fertility sometimes translates as being “rich” and having abundance. Fears want to be conquered or worked with so they evolve into strengths. Wishes are perhaps urges toward abundance and away from fears, making bets or taking risks may be foolish at times and at others the only way to go. What risks would you have to take to remove or to overcome certain fears? What would be lost or changed?
Akashi Records/ mono print and drawing/ ink, watercolor and acrylic on paper Elaine Clayton copyright 2013
As I created this mono print, half the fun of it was not knowing what would happen. Art is most enjoyable when I am surprised by it as it progresses. What emerged into my consciousness via an image on paper was a sense of purpose (symbolized by the appearance of the whale–known as the “Keeper of the Akashic Records”). What seemed to whisper to me during the drawing phase of this mono print was the spirit of life purpose (after the print was made, I went about finding the meanings and the imagery anew). The discovery, through experiences, of my purpose in life, and how each of us finds what that means to us as individuals kept coming to mind and heart. For me, the purpose is to realize that all these constructs I’ve found myself in (life roles–that of daughter, teenager, wife, mother, artist, teacher, etc.) are there to show me who I am. I can easily see all the ways in which I need to grow more loving, more patient, more internally loving. The roles I’m in only show me the reflections of ways in which I need to grow, and sometimes ways in which I have over time.
If you are knowledgable about plants, herbs, flowers, etc and their medicinal or nourishing qualities, I wish you’d write a book EDIBLE WEEDS–unless–has this been done before? A user-friendly guide with images would be great!