Flying Dream: Bring Me Back Down!

From my sketchbook/2012

I’ve had flying dreams since I was a kid. They were usually thrilling, enthralling, amazing. Unless I had stress at school, which caused me to be less able to feel good while flying in the dream–I’d be sort of clawing to move upward, trying my best to remain near the clouds, or just a few feet from the ground, and feeling distress.  Later, I began to manipulate my dreams so I could consciously, while dreaming, command myself to fly here or there, to control aspects of the dream. This is another way to feel completely enthralled, by the way, to be in control during a dream.  As I got older, I began having what I call true astral experiences of a remarkable kind (in my experience, there are a multitude of types of astral experiences one can have), where I am completely lucid, in fact awake but so relaxed as to be blissful in the body.  I am seeing, but not with my real physical eyes, and I am being pulled as though a great magnet, some kind of invisible force.  This force gently but powerfully moves me along. It is stunning to experience this because you SEE and are truly THERE. You are not in your body, but you are in fact truly aware and seeing beyond your physical body, it is not a dream.  In these experiences, you can potentially collect data as you have literally been somewhere, it is “remote viewing” and something worth exploring. So far I do not manipulate to purposely go places in these astral travels, it is more that I am being given the experience and so for me it is a great experiment unfolding.

I began listening to Astral Projection cd produced by Eldon Taylor’s InnerTalk and this has created a new experience in my dreams concerning flying. I don’t recall ever having this kind of flying dream. It is that I was flying around, about 14 feet off the ground, and decided to go into a jewelry store. My grandpa used to wear a ruby ring and I sometimes wonder if I should buy a ruby ring to wear to remember him by. So, I flew into the store and wanted to lower myself to the ground.  I was unable to do this. I was so weightless, I could not bring myself down!  I security guard below caught my attention and I shouted out to him. He kindly reached up as I stretched and reached down, and his hand was able to grasp mine to lower me from the air. It was great to have a trusty helper, and strange to be so weightless as to be unable to ground myself. (This dream will be fun to share on a new page on FB, the Dream Circle page, where I’ll see what happens in the way of analyzing this dream, as dreams teach us so much).

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Raymond Moody’s New Book: PARANORMAL: MY LIFE IN PURSUIT OF THE AFTERLIFE

A recent Spirit Painting/copyright 2011

I feel like Dr. Raymond Moody is part of my inner circle because I’ve known of his work from teen years when my Dad gave me a book by Dr. Ritchie about his near-death-experience (Dr. Ritchie and Dr. Moody both researched NDEs). Raymond Moody also contributed to my book/working journal, ILLUMINARA INTUITIVE JOURNAL with CARDS.  He has a new book out and I’m excited about it.  If you’re interested in what happens when we die, or in mysterious things we experience while alive, this book will be a great read.  Click here to find out more.

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Empty Your Mind (Detachment)

My painting “Empty Your Mind”/2012

Last week in the chat room of Eldon Taylor’s PROVOCATIVE ENLIGHTENMENT show on Hay House Radio, there was a discussion about “emptying the mind” and whether or not one could become truly enlightened by doing so. We tossed around whether or not it is possible to truly empty the mind. Ravinder Taylor, I believe it was, said that perhaps its about making the mind still.

I keep thinking about this because in yoga, the message is to detach. Allow yourself to simply BE and breathe. It is making the mind still, it is letting go of whatever we’re normally attached to. Examining my own mind, and what is swimming around in it, I find that it could be worries (that which I do not feel settled until solved), aspirations (that which I do not feel complete until gained), hurts (that which I cannot let go of and which usually points to a feeling of threatened self worth), anger (that which I cannot let go of which is about control and a sense of righteousness), etc. etc.

I have a cd of the 23rd Psalm that I got from Eldon Taylor’s InnerTalk. I am thinking it through and I realize that perhaps emptying the mind is what this Psalm is all about:  ”The Lord is my Shepherd, there is nothing I shall want” feels like allowing all the things my mind holds onto to fall away. To BE and be complete without needing to attach to anything, be it right, be it painful, hopeful or worthy, even. Just BE for at least a moment. And in that moment, something else happens, and its a sense of calm and completeness. Question: How long or how often can I remember to go into that space where my mind is empty?

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What Happens When You Speak the Truth?

A drawing from my early twenties

What are your truths? What happens when you tell someone what you truly think, feel or believe?  What happens when you shine your light upon a situation?  If someone runs the other way, it could be they have very different truths from your own, or that your self honesty is not situationally optimal for them for some reason.  I felt freer when I realized it is best to state the truth as I experience it, and we never have to judge another person for their truths or the way they operate.  Yet, we do get to decide and judge situations and whether or not they are healthy for us. And it all starts with knowing our own truths, our own understandings of what feels best from the inside out.

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The Book Shelf Bedroom: Playing with Perception and Scale

My second from top bookshelf/Miss Juniper’s Room/2012

I see spaces and immediately wonder what it would feel like to be small scale and inhabit the space. Yesterday, a large white shelf I saw felt like a Soho loft, I thought. Corners and ledges grab my imagination. Sometimes, indoors and out, I create spaces to be livable for smaller people. I love to play with scale and perception.  This space here is more like a NYC studio apt., maybe. But it’s clean, bright.  I’m on the hunt for the next space to transform…

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Angelic Protection

A detail from a recent Spirit Painting commission/2012

Silent, aware, enlightened, protective, knowing and generous.

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Synesthesia and The Number 5

This is a painting I keep changing when I have extra paint, and yesterday this “5″ popped out/2012

In meditations and intuitive readings, numbers often come up. I have my own associations with numbers, developed since childhood. I discuss this in ILLUMINARA INTUITIVE JOURNAL with CARDS, how the linear personality of a written number speaks to us.  So, if you can suspend what the number symbol stands for and just see it as a drawing, a line with personality, you’ll start to feel what that line says to you.  Then you can incorporate the actual significance of the numerological assignment the drawn number symbol represents. Young children do this without needing to be prompted, they see and get an instant impression. For example, number 5 for me as a child (before I knew that it meant “five digits”) was a boy. His color was blue. He might have a scent of nicely laundered shirt. He was an affable kid. He was on the go. He might have even been in a wheel chair, or a kid who loved cars.  He reminded me of my friend Bobby, but not entirely. (This is synesthesia here–my mind works out the colors, the scent, the texture, etc. of anything I see, even a line in the shape of “5″).  When I see a 5 in a reading, or when it appears in a painting in a kind of stream-of-consciousness way, I have to acknowledge a kind of positive change in the air, a movement forward of some kind. Will be interesting to see….

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Can’t Leave the Paper Blank!

A 1996 sketchbook of mine

I can never leave a blank piece of paper alone.  This sketchbook from 1996 has a little man doing his daily stretches and this piece of paper from a hotel has some blue ball point pen drawings on it. That blank paper is too inviting, wanting something to happen on it. This is why I love keeping sketchbooks and journals–what we draw and write creates a “something” where there was a “nothing”.

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Seeing the Past Opens the Future

Recent painting/2012

One of the most important facets of time and how it effects us is that we experience the past, and then plan or ready ourselves for the future. In readings, often what comes up in a Psychic Drawing is that experiences from our past can hold us back from creating the future we’re wanting for ourselves. Some dynamic we endured or some wound we suffered keeps us tied up in some way, and many times we’re not conscious of it. The most freeing experience is when an old mindset or infliction has the light shined upon it and we begin to really see new ways to perceive ourselves, new experiences to create.  And the future opens up!

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Spirit Painting: Robert

One of the Spirit Paintings in the first year of Illuminara.com

This Spirit Painting was created for a boy (a commission ordered by his grandmother). Today, the air and the way the children played outside reminded me of the essence of this painting. Discovery, adventure, mystery.

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