A few days ago, I had an astral experience that kind of surprised me. I was at first seeing (with stark clarity) a rafter with yellow jackets or wasps making a next. Then I was pulled to the right along a fast track (usually I am pulled forward) and into velvety darkness, not unlike the tunnel with the light at the end of it. Then I was shown a desert scene where an enormous crater opened up (like a sink hole). The particles of sand were so clear to me. I was hovering over it. Then I was shown a plains area, very flat. In the far distance were 3 smoke plumes. They were yellow-blackish. There seemed to be an explosion, and though the smoke plumes were so far away, mud splattered onto me from the explosion. Next, I was shown a canyon arch, red rock. The red rock arch crumbled. It was very dramatic. Again, I was hovering over this. Now at this point I was pulled along and was shown beautiful sea water. There had been an underwater volcano.
I came out of this astral experience at that point, as though released from the concern of each scene. I do not know what to make of it. It was so starkly real visually, I wondered if all of these things were going on somewhere right now. There are fires raging in US but I am not sure if there are any in a vast open plains area. Maybe these are things which do happen on and off on earth, but it seemed surprising to me to see 4 scenes, all about some kind of earth disaster or event, with the only exception being the fires. I was under the impression they may have been man-made (and possibly chemical fires–but I was not sure). I do not know if these are predictions or not. I only know I was shown these scenes.
Taking a leap of faith is something that should happen when inwardly, you and you alone know that it is the right thing to do (sketchbook 2009)
You know what your purpose is, what you came here to do. You may not accept it because of the way others conditioned you. Usually people define our purpose for us as we grow by letting us know what we cannot do, or what they have decided we are not capable of doing. Sometimes, people may manipulate us into doing what they determine is our purpose (for their own uses). You are the only one who truly knows your purpose, and the only one who can truly advocate for yourself in making that purpose evolve into action. Some wonderful people may help us understand and recognize that purpose (thank God!) while many others would and will try to shape you to their will. What you are called to do is your very own conversation with God, with your sense of your true soul essence. When you sit quietly, listen inwardly and know that there is a compass of light in there that will guide you to all you came to live, all you came to know, all you came to do.
This is a repost of one of my Westport Sketchbook sketches w/ water color of the pool at Longshore
Summer is here, the smell of chlorine and sunscreen and the warmth of the sun on wet skin is back. Summer in Westport is the gentle play of light flashing on the water and the sound of kids shrieking, hot concrete under my feet, the sea view, expansive and open just beyond the pool. I love the ride home when the car fills up with hot air (we roll the windows down) and wet towels and ears, wrinkled toes and fingers begin to dry.
Two cards out of 40 from ILLUMINARA INTUITIVE JOURNAL with CARDS
In recent intuitive reading headings I have done in NYC, I have discovered with clients the power of two. Choosing one card (at random without seeing which card you are picking) and allowing feelings to arise, and thoughts, and memories is potent. Then choosing another card at random and seeing what it brings up when beside the first chosen card is even more rich. It is more rich because the two card images together kind of complete a story, or a thought or idea that needs expressing.
When you use the cards, be sure to play and be playful. Make up your own process and just simply see what the cards say to you. Once you know what each card symbolizes for you, you can ask in meditation for spiritual help and guidance. Pick a few cards and trust what they say to you. And if someone else comes to you for assistance or guidance, you can read for them by having them choose a card from the deck of 40 images and while you will want to ask them what the card means to them (so they can begin to tap into their own “inner library”) you will be able to trust and know that what the card means to you will in some way help this person. You can share your meaning and then encourage them to share what it means to them, especially with their concern in mind and heart.
My sketch of Alistair/first day of summer 2012
I used to call the boys “Summerlad” from the first day of school vacation on through the first day of the new school year at summer’s end. I could sketch him all day, but was lucky to get the few I did.
This is one of my Westport Sketchbook drawings of Compo Beach/2010/pencil and watercolor
Last day of school, looking forward to pink pearlescent days at the beach!
from my sketchbook dream journal/2012
I’m not too shy about putting my dreams out there. Go ahead and analyze this if you want to (Jungian, Freudian, etc.). This dream, like only a few others, though, has that tinge of scary-real that makes me certain it was a premonition dream. You know it when you have one because premonition dreams are unlike other dreams in that there is a level of emotional finality and clarity that is hard to describe. However, as we can alter our fate, and not allow the future to devolve into tatters and ruin, we can hopefully stop this from happening.
The dream simply showed me how many more people will become homeless. People who a few years ago would never have ever, ever thought this was a possibility. And there were so many that they began to band together, all types, all ages. On the edges of suburbia they waited to take over homes that stood empty. A foreclosure here or there or whatever. They were desperate and hungry, but only months prior they had been dignified and enjoyed roles in society that properly reflected their education and/or life experience as good citizens. And now they were without shelter and in shock and in survival mode. Yet there were still many people who had homes, which caused a certain kind of tension, not unlike The Little Match Girl by Hans Christian Andersen.
Homelessness has been a problem for ages, there have always been homeless. But what is happening now in our society, all around the globe, is that the structure of our system is eroding and the gap between the extremely wealthy and the destitute seems to widen by the day. If there really is a 1% and a 99%, and things keep going in the same direction, it is not hard to imagine this dream actually happening. I hope and pray not, yet as I write this I realize it may be kind of happening in some places already.
We create a dimension of being based on how we perceive and what enters our belief system. In a way, each moment is another moment to perceive anew, to slip into other ways of being (feeling, emoting and acting). How powerful is our perception to help us survive, and how powerful is it to help us thrive? We may have developed some perceptual notions based on past survival instincts (unconsciously or not) that we no longer need. Any of our perceptions can be altered, you usually feel it when it is time to shift into a new way of seeing and feeling and being. If you feel that coming on in some way, try shoving furniture around. The inward shift is easier when you take something heavy and move it. Seeing something real in your life get moved into a new position helps give us a new way of seeing from the inside out. Perceive yourself into your new self.
A collage of separate pieces that were on my drawing table this morning/2012
I like taking separate, unrelated pieces and making sense of them by putting them together. There is a random surprise element to the chaotic being made harmonious (or not). If we could see all the pieces of our lives, events, memories, emotions, phases of growth, etc. as separate sketches or art studies, would we see how all these random things we’ve experienced come together to sum us up? But then, in another moment, all those pieces might get arranged differently, so we’re a constant work in progress. Makes me think we really are a sort of moving kaleidoscope of life experiences, choices and circumstances, little gems all working together.
From my sketchbook/ink and watercolor
Try to see your emotions as color. And feel where they activate your body. Sitting here now, I feel a particular pressure in my throat. That color feels like it might be midnight blue-purple. I am sure I have communicated today, but do not necessarily feel resolved, so this might be why I have this energy in my throat chakra. The midnight blue color I “see” when I tune into this feeling simply reminds me to rest, to go deep and be calm. There is also a feeling of excitement in my solar/sacral chakras. I am happy, looking forward to tomorrow. This color feels yellow and white. Like sunshine. And I notice a feeling of stress between the eyes. Third-eye chakra wants me to stop seeing so hard, stop worrying. Relax. This color seems green and white, knitted or braided. I need to relax those worrying strands. I over think sometimes.
Tune in today to your emotions and your body and try and see the color of that feeling. To heal myself and feel well, I like to also see healing light as bright as ever, maybe sparkling colors or white misty streams flowing from head to toe, from up above me straight through me. Seeing the colors of all this energy is not just about seeing what is there, but about putting there what you need in order to have wellbeing.